Facebook memories hit me hard this morning. Baby-Maya, tiny and sweet, completely unaware that neuroblastoma was already in her little body. Then I think of the photo from four weeks ago, right before her CAR-T infusion. Taller. Braver. Stronger than any kid should ever have to be. And then today’s photo. My 12-year-old girl with a nasal cannula, an NG tube, already twice admitted to ICU, seconds before physio had to suction her again as ICANS keeps fighting its ugly fight. T

Today has been another heavy day in Maya’s journey. Although her neurological status hasn’t changed — she’s still only responsive to pain and doesn’t respond to voices — her oxygen needs are not “intensive” enough for ICU. She doesn’t need Optiflow, but she still depends on oxygen via nasal cannula or mask. She continues to have apnoea spells, desaturating to 81%, usually triggered by secretions or simply by being repositioned to relieve pressure off her bony areas: sacrum, s

….and Why We’re So Grateful She Stayed in ICU. Saturday 22/11/25 Maya stayed stable throughout the Friday night, and she’s managed all of this without sedation, which feels like a small blessing in the middle of everything. Terry and I kept to the two-hours-on, two-hours-off leg splint routine, and every time they came off, I massaged all her limbs and did the passive physio the team taught me. Her muscles are wasting away now, and it breaks my heart — but if these little exe

Thursday 20th November 2025 Can you imagine how daunting it felt to sit in a meeting room inside PICU, alone, with four clinicians — Maya’s consultant, the research doctor, the ICU doctor and her PICU nurse. Four walls that have heard far too many heartbreaking conversations about children. After a few minutes of niceties, the consultant’s face turned serious. My heart was racing. She summarised everything from the CAR-T cell infusion on Tuesday 4th November, right up to Maya

Maya Update – 20 November 2025 I’ve added stickers over Maya’s face to soften the photos as I know how hard they can be to see — but I also want to keep everyone updated as clearly as possible. 🫁 Scans & Tests Chest X-ray (18/11): Clear. CT scan (18/11): No swelling, but some new changes they’re watching closely. MRI brain & spine (with contrast 19/11): Again, no swelling, but new changes similar to the CT. EMG/Nerve conduction studies (19/11): Inconclusive because she was d

🌼 Awareness & Gratitude 🌼 When I swapped with Terry on Friday night (31st October), I noticed Maya’s PICC line site looking red, sore and Maya was shivering (rigors). It had only been inserted a few days earlier (28th October) under general anaesthetic, so some discomfort was expected — but as a parent, you just know when something doesn’t look right. I raised my concern with the nurse looking after Maya, and I’m so grateful they took it seriously straight away. They checke