😩 So, I’m now 24 hours post-op following my arthroscopic subacromial decompression — which, in plain English, means they shaved bits of my shoulder bone to create more space and stop everything rubbing together. The surgery itself went well. The recovery? That’s another story. I’m taking Co-codamol 30/500, two tablets every six hours, exactly as prescribed. The problem is that it barely takes the edge off the pain. The stabbing breakthrough pains are relentless and sharp eno

Thursday 11th December brought warmth into an otherwise heavy place. Tiffany from The Kent Review came to visit us, arm full of goodies and kindness. We talked about the little tribe that forms here — mums instinctively finding one another, lifting each other when the weight becomes unbearable. I often come across strong and confident, and maybe that’s because survival demands it. But beneath that surface, I carry the same fear as every other parent here. We’re fighting a thi

I left ICU on Thursday night, close to 11pm, after a long, reassuring chat with Maya’s night nurse. I tried to find comfort in knowing she would be watching over my baby girl — and she really did. Friday morning was the first time in a very long time that I slept without interruption… even if it was only about four hours. I spent the rest of the morning doing admin on my phone — cancelling and postponing all of Maya’s outpatient appointments: SALT, physiotherapy, her annual E